I'm still not sure how I feel about releasing this track. It came out as a vent and now it feels whiny and lacks subtlety. I can't tell if the vocals just need better compression or need replacement entirely. Not really happy with it anymore, but it is a key part of this album.
lyrics
I get
The feeling I don't belong
When they say
I'm always taking too long
And I'd put
the best of what I can do
It doesn't matter to you
I know
how worthless I really am
And every conversation
feels like a final exam
You constantly remind me
That I'm not pulling my weight
And keeping track of
Everything that I ate
Your words cut deeper than the scars and burns I take
I'll sleep forever cause I hate to be awake
The tension growing
Forever knowing
I'm not the person that you wanted me to be
[Chorus]
I wish that I could end it all
(To end the pain and wipe myself off of the earth)
But I'm just too scared to take the fall
(And every day you let me know just what I'm worth)
I have to stay
When you want me away
Endure this every day
Cause I've got nowhere else to go
It hurts
When you think I didn't try
Cause I feel
Like I've been ready to die
Happiness is a dream
Inside I silently scream
Cause all of my self esteem
Has boiled down to nearly
Looking for the fastest way to hit the ground
I'm not a blessing I'm a consequence of fate
I hate my lack of skill and hate what I create
This world around me
Will not allow me
To take my time cause I'm not perfect from the start
supported by 14 fans who also own “Nowhere to Go (demo)”
Monumental has to be my favorite track of the album since the song is so uplifting and motivating. It feels like a guiding star in the night sky. riley25
supported by 13 fans who also own “Nowhere to Go (demo)”
When comparing this album to those that came after this album is definitely underwhelming for the most part. Being a mostly side story to Bleeding Sun until Rogue appears in God Hunter making this canon in a small amount. There's two songs that are my most favorite Aviators released in this album. More than a half of the songs sadly do not stick with me for long.
It is worth purchasing this for the bonus content that you don't find anywhere else and fair amount of variety sounds mixed in. triplej26
supported by 13 fans who also own “Nowhere to Go (demo)”
This album really shows the grow of Aviators throughout the years. It's Perfect in every single way, and i love it.The Atmosphere stays for a long time even after you listen to it. It's so special, and i wish we could get another album like that. Striket